Where are you now?

I have been gone too long and in that time I learned a great deal. I am back here to write about some of it, to tell you the story of how my life has changed recently and talk about the future. I am gonna jump into the deep, and I will be very honest about my happiness as well as my darkness.

People keep asking me where do I see myself in 10 years. In order to answer that question I first need to know where I am now. Do you know where you are now?

I had the unfortunate (still quite fun) but also pretty heavy situation of having to work next to my studies, and I like to blame the lack of internships on it. How am I supposed to do free work and build up my resume when someone has to pay my rent eventually. I also don’t tell people about my blog anymore, when they find out about it and ask me why I don’t keep publishing, well it gets really hard when I have a 30 hour work week and still need to visit classes and study. Next to that I have a social life and need to build my contacts as well, right?

Anyway, I wanted to talk about the last few months. About the fact that I started loving myself for who I am and started choosing for myself. Things have changed in a way that I decided to quit a toxic relationship and take some important steps in my life. In the past few ‘free’ months I took time to reevaluate decisions that I have already made but also think about the ones that are about to be taken. I have always believed that when I get older I would only have the job I enjoy and it makes me happy but life happens and then you just have to deal with it.

Everyone who thought that I will be working in fashion, no I am not. I am working as a bartender and I love it, special beers became my hobby and it has opened a whole new and different world for me. I have met so many new people, many of them have stayed friends through my ‘accidental’ hobby.

Currently I have undertaken a lot of projects, and the thing I am very happy about is that I am so conscious about each one of them and what can I learn that for me that is already the first step. What I can say for now is that I am working on a fashion related project with a talented friend of mine and we are about to launch our website in the coming week. You could check out our Facebook page – AIDAROV. It has been a project in the making for some time now and even though I blamed its postponing on my busy schedule, truth is I was not inspired enough. Now I feel full of passion and inspiration and slowly but steadily we hope to create something beautiful out of it.

I haven’t given up my dream to work in fashion but what I realised is what I mentioned in the beginning of this article – where am i now? I am obviously not talking about my geographical location but the stage in my life on a more personal level.

I feel like I have a lot to talk about, a lot of realisations, a lot of plans and whole lot of love. I am not giving any promises and coming up dates for my publications. I will be back when I am. Because life must not happen on schedule and I don’t know where the hell will I be in a week or two or in 10 years.

 

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